Reveling in hallucinations of self importance

chimchimery @ 2007-02-11T01:55:00

2007-02-11T06:55:53Z

HA HA HA HA HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
i like it when annoying weekends turn into weekends where i am greatly amused by dead lobsters and catching people playing beerpong with the door wide open.

chimchimery @ 2006-12-15T22:39:00

2006-12-16T03:39:32Z

If anyone from da' ridge is reading:
I'll be home Sunday sometime.
long two day drive ahead of me.
The Prestige and the Fountain are playing at Wynnsong and I've got the jones to see 'em. They will probably only be playing there for a week, so if anyone's interested in going to see either one with me gimme a holla! Otherwise I'll have to drag le daddeee's behind out to see them with me.

HaPPY HOLIdays!!!!!!

chimchimery @ 2006-11-07T17:46:00

2006-11-07T22:46:40Z

Britney spears filed for divorce from Kevin Federline!!!!!!!!!!
I had a bad night yesterday and a stressful day today and I feel so much better now. I may truly be excited by this news.

chimchimery @ 2006-11-06T13:11:00

2006-11-06T18:12:01Z

i am exhausted and burned out.
I need to get away to someplace good.
can't wait for thanksgiving!

chimchimery @ 2006-10-31T22:06:00

2006-11-01T03:06:23Z

wtf esther?

oh earlham

2006-10-13T16:35:37Z

i had a fabulous time at earlham. so very very good. I think the evidence is in the pictures where i look so happy and laughing and delighted. it was weird to be there, but it was amazing to see the people i love and trust deep down in my heart. it was hard coming back though. oh well. i will bring the good things here, i will teach them how to be better.

chimchimery @ 2006-09-21T12:13:00

2006-09-21T16:13:45Z

it's my birthday!
I love that it is my birthday and that people who know are being extra nice to me.
I am,however, literally mentally and physically exhausted from job stresses. I did some yoga this morning and that was nice. and i was woken up by daddy calling to tell me happy birthday, which was the best.
I just wish that i felt secure about not having someones mother call me up or hunt me down to tell me what a horrible job I'm doing. Because i really like it when they do that. It makes me feel really good about having stressed and lost sleep over trying to do the best thing for their child.
BUT, a resident who does appreciate what i've done for him is buying Carrie and I flowers tomorrow!!!! so Yay!

and i am determined to have a good birthday.

love ya'll. except for esther who sent me a very mean polaroid of her and Kels eating what is supossedly my earlham birthday cake. Beeyatches.

chimchimery @ 2006-09-17T19:14:00

2006-09-17T23:14:27Z

ugh. i am so tired of being sick and having to deal with people's b.s. I can take it most of the time, but right now i am so tired and i feel so gross. blagh. suck it up people. Be responsible and take care of your shit. blah blah blah.

chimchimery @ 2006-09-16T20:40:00

2006-09-17T00:40:05Z

i am really tired of having this illness. I am puny and worthless and unclean. and so so so tired. bllllllllllllllllllllllaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

chimchimery @ 2006-09-13T18:22:00

2006-09-13T22:22:04Z

THIS scares the shit out of me. I don't want to eat something that looks like a character, and I definately don't want to eat something that looks like a friggin' scary character. and i also don't want one vegetable to look like another vegetable. That's just wrong.

I'm cheating on you

2006-09-13T03:27:24Z

I am maybe cheating on Livejournal. with Blogger. You can check it out if you want.
http://chimloverly.blogspot.com/

I've only updated it twice. I won't get rid of LJ though, this is where all the dirty dirty thoughts in my mind go. and lord knows I have plenty of those!

Tonight I played sex jeopardy. as in jeopardy with questions about women's health, contraception, and STDs. I LOVED IT. and my team won (of course). I may have been more into it than any of the residents.

I also may be turning more and more into a girly girl every day. I found a suitable replacement for the dial soap as a face cleanser. that's all I'll say.

chimchimery @ 2006-09-11T20:02:00

2006-09-12T00:02:43Z

I went to a Mary Kay color party tonight. then i washed my face with dial hand soap.

I had fun. booyah.

chimchimery @ 2006-09-10T18:09:00

2006-09-10T22:09:41Z

I had my hair done today. and when I say done I mean trimmed and HIGHLIGHTED!!!

It is Sunday and sunday's are cleaning days. I have been cleaning but it is hard to tell because i have been stuck for the past hour working on the effing cabinet of the porta-potty smell. it involves removing all items in cabinet, removing shelves, stripping off old contact paper that the smell has stuck to, putting the shelves in the tub with some bleach and water and letting them sit, scrubbing out the cabinet unit with enough cleaning solution to cause asphyxiation, then wash out cabinet unit with water, then with bleach, then water again. dry, put down nice new contact paper, put cabinet back together, put everything away.

I may have found a bag of bad potatoes that smelled like a baby's bottom. when the baby has just shat it's diaper. Unfortunately, the bag of potatoes was not the source of the porta-potty smell. I think it is just that the cabinet smells from some evil force that has seeped into its walls.

ANYWay! I did get all my laundry done and most of it is folded and none of it is put away. I need to do the following:
finish putting laundry away
collect dirty clothes and put in hamper
organize living room where I have been using it as an office and it looks like a copy machine vomited all over it
put trash bags in trash cans
put pillows where they should be
make bed
dust
vacuum
scrub kitchen and bathroom sinks
mob kitchen and bathroom. and when i say mob i mean mop with a swiffer wet.

I'd feel overwhelmed except that I know that if I get all of that done I will have a better and more organized week. so. back to work. yup. enjoy your unclean lives you peons!!!

XOXO,
born again neat freak.

chimchimery @ 2006-09-07T12:01:00

2006-09-07T16:01:54Z

it is two minutes to noon and I am still wearing Only my towel. It is a thursday. I had intended on getting up this morning and going to get my New York drivers license.
Alas, I was on duty last night. Everything was quiet and then it wasn't and I was awake until 2 in the morning writing a report for an incident that ended at midnight.

What to wear to the office for the three hours that I will be in this afternoon...it's an issue. I washed all of my nice clothes yesterday, but they are still drying and need to be ironed. All of my denim bottoms are not clean. I could wear my long denim skirt, but I have worn a skirt twice this week. Tomorrow is friday and therefore a casual day, but I will have washed all my denims by then.

My new brown pumps are too big even though they fit in the store. It means I can't walk in them well. I put a run in my tights yesterday.
I still really love my job. even when it gets kind of gross.

I think i will get chinese food tonight. yum.

chimchimery @ 2006-09-04T22:49:00

2006-09-05T02:49:15Z

It's been a while. What a life I am living. I have an awesome apartment. I have developed a love of dressing up for the office everyday...and when i get to the office i get to ORGANIZE things in spreadsheets and lists galore and i kind of love it.
Duty is long and exhausting, but I thrive on emergencies.
Today an angry mother yelled at me on the phone. Not my mother. Someone elses. I was so calm and did my best to satisfy.

I miss Earlham and my loverlies like mad.

The people here are kind of awesome and I am coming to terms with the fact that i am a girly girl. but a funny girly girl.

My obsession with fresh air has led to SIX windows being open while it was 50 degrees outside and boy was my room cold...but i sleep well at night and the windows are only cracked now.

tonight i bought frozen veggies and more Raisin Nut Bran. I maybe go through about two boxes of Raisin Nut Bran a week.

I'm always busy but I haven't felt overwhelmed yet. I kind of like where I am in life right now. The summer is over, the disasters have ended and my parents have been living in their new house for two weeks now. And even when i complain, I kind of love my job.

the dreams, oh the dreams

2006-08-20T16:36:09Z

i had crazy mad dreams last night. Of course, I was tired out of my wits. the kind of tired where you are pretty much drunk and do things like lose your keys somewhere in your apartment and then can't find them in the morning.
We spent all of yesterday at the local six flags theme park. In the rain. I went on two rides, the kiddie one Raging Seas, and this one where you sit in a big boat and it swings you up and around in a circle so you go upside down but you don't actually go anywhere. I still had fun, even if a lot of people didn't 'cause of the Rain.

But oh my goodness the dreams.
Made me realize all over again that what i really want is someone who can take care of me but will let me take care of them. Because it can be so hard when you are the one taking care of everyone else and making sure that everyone else's life is going smoothly. I can't NOT take care of people, especially ones I love (which, let's be honest, is pretty much everyone until they give me a reason to NOT), but sometimes it would be really nice to be taken care of and to feel really really safe. And I would maybe really really like for that person to be a male. And to be my main squeeze. oh baby oh baby.

chimchimery @ 2006-08-09T18:31:00

2006-08-09T22:31:06Z

today i kicked ass on my three minute big van driving test. I backed that thing up like it was my bitch! now i just have to clock 5 50miles or less trips so that i can take the big ass van anywhere!

i have pictures of my apartment but i haven't loaded them on the computer yet. and esther, i took a picture of that other thing. you know what i'm talking about. I'll send it soon, never fear. I may censor part of the picture. I don't know, do you want me to? it's nothing you haven't glimpsed before!

RAs will get here Monday and i'm pretty much real excited! I'm also pumped about Earlham RA friends about to start training! Love ya'll!

last night i made frozen chocolate covered bananas. they are kind of amazing. but messy.

project runway tonight! whoot!

chimchimery @ 2006-08-07T21:48:00

2006-08-08T01:49:02Z

why am i so tired?
why am I so broke?
why oh why can't i have a loom and a spinning wheel and all the fiber my heart desires?

i'm heading for bed now. wow. so tired.

just call me..

2006-08-03T20:16:53Z

my boss has taken to calling my Susie May. He struggles to remember all of our names so we just respond to the thing he calls us most often. ocassionally i am known as Mary Elizabeth.
i kind of love being called Susie May.

why i love living alone in an apartment

2006-08-01T02:21:51Z

I don't have to close the bathroom door unless i have company (or unless i have left the window blinds open)
I walk around in my underwear or my bath towel for at least two hours during the day because it is too hot to have so many clothes on.
I can sleep in nothing but a tshirt and underwear. I can sleep naked if i so desire!
I don't have to do anyone's dishes but my own.
I don't have to explain the smell in my dishes cabinet to anyone. It's from the george forman. i might get it a special box or something.
Knitting needles are everywhere and i don't have to worry about anyone sitting on them.
yarn is everywhere and i don't have to worry about people stepping on a stray strand and unballing a bunch of it by walking around with the yarn attached to their foot.
i can be as anal retentive or as slobby as i want to be and I don't have to answer anyone's questions about it.

pretty much this is the best thing ever. I'd probably be getting lonely, but i have CABLE television!
training starts tomorrow! whoot!

chimchimery @ 2006-07-30T16:05:00

2006-07-30T20:06:01Z

i've taken a shower and am now working myself up to LEAVE the apartment and go shopping again. but i can't decide if i want to stay in the village or go to the village with the Big walmart.
and i need to find someone to do me a favor tomorrow afternoon. it's unfortunate that i don't know anyone yet.
at least i'm clean.

chimchimery @ 2006-07-29T22:53:00

2006-07-30T02:53:03Z

this whole process is taking forever. I'm so so so glad i came up here so early 'cause it is going to take me all of these free days to settle.
my apartment is currently...chaotic. but it's getting there.
I don't know my address yet
I don't have a cord for my phone and i don't know my new phone number
my cell phone is working but not consistently. which means most of the time it is working, just if I don't call you back that's why.
I am in love with making house. and seriously, if i was trying to do this during training it would never get done and i would live in chaos forever. now i just need to find someplace to deposit all of this trash i have accumulated by my front door.
we will not discuss the monetary situation as of yesterday. let's just say i needed a lot of things. and i need a few more. but we will deal with that when it comes.
i can't wait to be able to afford curtains though!!! curtains and art on the walls is going to tie everything together and make the entire apartment brilliant to live in!

and monday i have to take my car to the village to have them fix my bumper. um... i live in a HAMLET. a hamlet is smaller than a village. the village is about 5-10 minutes away. there is not much in the village. to find super walmart you have to drive through the village, then through another village by the name of dundee (not crocodile. amish dundee. I don't know why), then 20 minutes after leaving you get to watkins Glen which has super walmart AND a yarn store! if you choose to go another way you drive 20 mins. to Geneva where you will find a Tops (i don't know what a Tops is), a BIG LOTS, and a walmart regular. this seems to also be the closest KFC and taco bell location. Geneva is a TOWN. watkins glen is a VILLAGE. this is all rather confusing to me but apparently that is how it is. and then of course I always have the option of driving an hour to the CITY of rochester. whoo.

okay. i'm sweaty and tired. i need to brush my teeth.

night ya'll! love you!

chimchimery @ 2006-07-24T08:30:00

2006-07-24T12:30:49Z

i have to finish packing. and then i'm leaving. me and my u-haul. I'm moving. really moving. like, real life, not just to school moving. I'm kind of heart broken.
My mama's not here. She flew to N.C. yesterday morning to be with her sister. My aunt just had surgery on her pituitary gland to remove a tumor. She's doing fine now, but there were complications during surgery.
this has been kind of a shitty ass summer. packing and emergencies. Not cool.

chimchimery @ 2006-07-21T10:09:00

2006-07-21T14:09:06Z

BITCH DONE HURT MY CAR!
I've seen it with my own eyes now. and then i called my dealer and he asked me if i was okay. I think I may have sounded a little upset on the phone.
And then i screamed in the driveway for awhile. and then i called my father and screamed at him and he made long silences on the phone and told me my mother didn't do it on purpose and i was parked too close to her and it was dark and then i screamed some more and started crying because i don't cry when i'm sad. I cry when i get so full of rage that i want to break all the dishes in the kitchen but I'm not allowed to. and then my dad said he'd go with me to the dealers and then i screamed at him that i was pissed off at him too and i didn't want to be near him. and then i hung up on him and fell asleep for 15 mins to try and keep myself from throwing the phone at the wall that is not mine.
I've taken a shower now. It did nothing to wash away the rage.

HE SAID WE MIGHT HAVE TO DUCT TAPE IT SO I CAN TRAVEL.
I DON'T THI-NK SO!

I AM SO ANGRY ABOUT THIS. SO SO SO VERY ANGRY.

THIS IS WHAT I CALL RAGE

2006-07-21T12:31:20Z

MY MOTHER HIT MY CAR
MY MOTHER HIT MY CAR
MY MOTHER HIT MY CAR AND TOOK OUT MY BUMPER
I AM MOVING IN FOUR DAYS

My car was backed in. Her car was backed in. Putting a car in drive and going out is NOT THAT EFFING HARD. NOT HITTING MY CAR IS NOT HARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think my rage would be lessened if she had stayed and dealt with it instead of sending my dad up to WAKE ME UP AT 6:30 THIS MORNING to tell me that i had to deal with this today. and to tell me in some tone of voice wherein IT WAS MY FAULT????????? wtf. wtf. wtf.

HAVE I MENTIONED HOW I AM MOVING IN FOUR DAYS. AND HOW ALL OF MY BELONGINGS ARE LOST IN THE MESS OF STORAGE AND I WAS GOING TO SPEND TODAY GETTING THEM OUT?????????????????

RAGE